It’s amazing how, when one feels at ease, and gets in the frequency of positivity, the universe starts to conspire in favor.
Since Monday, my relationship with the not-so-liked partner, has been so much better and harmonic. I’ve been so happy in my current job this week, I sometimes question my doubts concerning it… I haven’t figured out that thing yet, but my attitude has definitely changed, and it’s affecting very positively. Yesterday I went to a Fitball-Pilates class and had such a great time I couldn’t remember why I stopped attending them.
I just got back from the gym, I ran for 50 minutes on the treadmill because the Zumba teacher decided there were not enough people to have class. Running gave me time to think, it always does.
I almost binged today, and barfing definitely crossed my mind: I felt like the old barfing days. I had a not-so-good day and at night (where my urges to eat everything on sight happen), I was about to binge, it started with an oatmeal cookie, half a doughnut, 1 salty cookie and cous cous. I prepared myself a cous cous mix with vegetables and chicken, but I wanted to eat the whole bowl (a big one), and then keep going with whatever food crossed my path. I even got angry when my mom entered the kitchen (usually when I binge, I wanna be left alone) and wanted her out of there so I could keep eating as much as I could in a small amount of time. I served a rather large portion of cous cous on my plate, and sat to eat with her. When I started eating, I remembered to enjoy it and calm down. I am sure it had a lot to do with the fact that my mom was there with me, but I like to think that the universe is conspiring to help me stop bingeing. I’m gonna go to sleep now, very happy that yet again, I consciously stopped another “bulimic episode” from happening.
Today’s phrase comes from Serena Dyer’s twitter, and I must live with this in mind:
“You will never change your life until you change something you do daily”-m. murdock