So, I always wait for something interesting to happen in my head so I can write an interesting post, but right now I’m feeling lousier by the second since the afternoon binge. I keep eating carelessly, without thinking about my goal to lose weight and enjoy/ingest food in a healthy manner.
This happens, if not every time, most times after a binge: I adopt the attitude of giving up, of eating whatever I feel like eating, not exercising and sabotaging myself big time. An impressive amount of negative thoughts flow through my mind and I stop listening to my inner voice saying: stop it, you’re better than this, you can stop this. The voice that says : “eat it, eat it all; one cookie is not enough; add more cheese to that quesadilla, you’ve already eaten too many calories, what’s a little extra more?; you’re doing it once again, you’re stuck here, you might as well enjoy it; don’t exercise, what’s the point?; you’re fat already, fat and lazy and a procrastinator by excellence; don’t get out of your room, we’re comfortable locked inside here; you’re not good enough”…always wins in a binge, and I end up feeling like crap for not listening to the positive but quieter little voice.
With this I finish the post. I must sleep early so I can feel better tomorrow.
Good night, people