I’ve been single ever since I can remember. I didn’t use to date guys as often as other friends did. My first relationship happened when I was 23 years old, 2 years ago.
I do not feel the pressure to have a boyfriend, I enjoy spending time alone but some days I feel eager to be in a relationship. Today was one of those days.
A few months ago I went to a friend’s birthday dinner and every friend who was invited brought along a boyfriend or fiance. I asked a female friend to come with me. I didn’t feel badly until I realised how a friend implied I was dating the girl I had gone with. She didn’t even say anything, she just smirked snidely when I said we appeared to be a couple as my friend and I came back from the bathroom.
So, that annoyed me. It annoys me to this day, so much that I don’t wanna go to this dinner party I have on Saturday, so much that I wish I had a boyfriend in order to prove I can indeed have a boyfriend.
This person who implied I was a lesbian isn’t even that important to me, she is not even a close friend and yet, here I am, writing a post about it.
A part of me is 100% certain I will meet my special someone but there is always that part of me that doubts if I ever will…
Anyways, I try to not let other peoples’ opinions affect me but it is not an easy task.
“Be independent of the opinion of others”.- Sounds simple but it is not, AT ALL; especially coming from an experienced people pleaser.
I am documenting this in order for me to read this in a near future and laugh, along with my boyfriend, about this situation that once made me angry and sad.