Liebster Award

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The lovely Colleen from Sprinkles and Skirts nominated me and brought me back to blogging :).

The Liebster award is an award given out to meet new bloggers and identify your favorite ones.

After receiving the award you must:

1) Post the award on your blog.

2) Thank the blogger who nominated you and link back to their blog.

3) Write 11 random facts about yourself.

4) Nominate any number of bloggers you think deserve this award. If possible, they should have less than 200 followers.

5) Answer the 11 questions asked by the person who nominated you, and ask 11 questions to the people you nominate in your post. 

I nominate these amazing blogs:

Message in a bottle 

Joyful Cacophony

The Roaming Lama

Lose da Booze

Morning Tear

Work of your hands 

Weightloss Counter Revolution

Sprinkles and Skirts

Cauldrons and Cupcakes

Lifeyum

Sober Identity

Questions for my beautiful nominees:

What 3 items would you take if you went to a desert island?

What do you like most about life?

What makes you happy?

What is your passion?

What is it that you do every day to keep you joyful?

Why do you blog?

What is your favourite food in the world?

What is your biggest dream in life?

What book are you currently reading?

Who is your role model and why?

Favourite movie of all time?

Eleven random facts about me: 

1. I am a very good and happy Graphic Designer (not a web designer, evidently)

2. I have learned to love myself through this blog (I’m still learning)

3. My family is the most important thing in my life

4. Chocolate is the second most important thing in my life 

5. I am a sucker for anything that has “vegan”, “gluten free”, “organic” attached to any food title because it removes any feelings of guilt in my head

6. Dancing is part of my essence

7. I have an obsession with living abroad

8. Through this blog I have developed meaningful friendships (and hopefully long-lasting ones)

9. I have come to enjoy weightlifting thanks to several accounts I follow on Instagram of kick ass women

10. I think Beyoncé is the epitome of perfection in a human being 

11. I LOVE meeting new people and keeping them around 

Answers to questions asked by Colleen:

1. What is your favorite piece of clothing that you own and why? A blue blazer from Banana Republic cause it’s both pretty and cozy.

2. What is your achilles heel? Chocolate.

3. What is your biggest pet peeve? Visible tumors, or weird skin rashes.

4. Tropical beach or European city vacation? Tropical beach in winter, European city on summer.

5. What are you self-conscious about? My legs.

6. What inspires you? Blogs, beautiful movies, over achievers, Ted Talks, kind people, animals. 

7. Would you call yourself an introvert or an extrovert and why? An extrovert. I’ve been told I don’t have word-filter.

8. Cat person or dog person and why? Dog person ❤ <3. I’ve always been around dogs.

9. If you could interview anyone from history or today who would it be and why? Mindy Kaling because I admire her entirely.

10. What are you most proud of in your life? Recovering from bulimia.

11. What is your favorite thing to cook/bake? Tuna, basil, onions and tomato cous cous.

If you reached this part of the post, I congratulate you and leave you with a big kiss :* !!!

AB Journaling

A: You wasted a whole weekend, escaped reality, didn’t work out, ate a lot, didn’t change your cellphone, didn’t investigate about scholarships abroad, didn’t do the homework for work. You are a woman of nearly 30 years of age and still act like a child. When is this all gonna change?

B: Hello sweetie. You did not waste a weekend. You caught up with an old friend, got to remember how helpful it was opening your blog, went to a concert, realised how much you would like to have an independent life abroad, and what you do want, and what you don’t. You may have escaped your reality a bit, but you enjoyed it because that is what you have learned to do over the years: enjoy life. You did a useful thing: you invested time in people you love. You did eat, maybe a lot, maybe not. Tomorrow is a day to redeem yourself. You can start by making the time to work out tomorrow. Stop beating yourself up and, tomorrow make a list of all the things you should do so you can prioritise and achieve goals.

You are 3 years away of turning 30. Make them worthy, happy and enjoyable. Life is to live it, enjoy it and doing so in your own way.

I love you, always.

A demon inside

We are our own worst enemies, no doubt about that. What I’m about to share is highly personal… and highly disturbing. I don’t even know why I am sharing, I just know I woke up in the middle of the night and decided to write about it.

This went on in my head today, and I documented it while shedding tears from my eyes. I decided to do some AB Journaling right now, to really get myself out of this situation and learn what my negative self is trying to tell me, and what my loving part has to answer.

A: I’m such a loser. How could I even think that stupid actor boy would like ME? Why do I even bother going through his twitter and facebook accounts? and his girlfriend’s? Only a stalking loser would do that. I don’t even have any money left and I was, a couple of days ago, preaching to my dad about money and abundance. What a hypocrite! Positive thinking? Screw that! You are a lazy, procrastinator, worthless piece of shit. You can’t even keep promises or words! You cancelled your dinner today without even giving a shit. And who are you kidding? Handling a business? You can’t handle your own life, let alone your own company! You have no chance to make your own business a successful one. You have zero discipline and no drive. Look at the results! You lie to yourself constantly. You are a loser, a fat loser, a worthless, lazy loser. you’re 25 and can’t even land a decent job or have a decent income. You don’t even enjoy working! Anybody who went to school with you knows that and would laugh at your face when finding out that you opened your business. You are a joke. You can’t even get your butt to exercise. You are so ashamed of what others will think of your body, you can’t get in shape. For it to be your dream (having a bikini body), you don’t seem to do much. Stalking people who can pull a bikini through facebook won’t get you the body so why do you keep doing that instead of getting your ass into shape?

B: You are no loser, stop saying that. You are beautiful. We don’t know if the boy likes you, there’s no way of knowing. You need to stop wasting time going through his social networks and his girlfriend’s. It’s no good for you or anybody. There’s no good purpose and nothing positive will come out of it. You’ll only end up feeling badly and frustrated. Why do you keep looking for ways to feel like that? You are meant to thrive, nothing less. But why do you constantly sabotage yourself? Ok, you spent all of your money on printing your Book for later interviews. Don’t beat yourself up about it. Move on and finish the project you have pending yet, that client still owes you money. Stop drowning in your own glass of water. Positive thinking is what has gotten you to stop barfing, binge less and has set you in the road to recovery. Your subconscious is trying to get you to a place where you have always been comfortable. You know that, you understand that. Don’t let the negative voice win. Love is stronger, love will ALWAYS prevail, so allow it to talk louder and listen to it. You are none of those ugly things you call yourself. You only have some habits you need to unlearn. Go back to keeping daily promises. One day at a time works for you. Yes, you cancelled dinner today. Guess what? It wasn’t a decision to be proud of but it was a decision based on how YOU were feeling. You are starting to cease pleasing people. Don’t beat yourself up about it, your friends understand. You don’t know how to handle a business buy it doesn’t mean you can’t learn. You DO have a chance to make it a successful one, you only have to be patient and focus on achieving small goals. You have proven to self-discipline yourself when you want to. And you do have drive, you just have to feed them both, day in and day out. You do lie to yourself but much more less than you did before. Love is your only truth. I am love, listen to me and you’ll find nothing but your true self, cause you are made of pure love. If you keep calling yourself a loser for any mistake you make, it will stay stuck in your subconscious. Remember, you are no loser, you are a wonderful, outstanding human being. You are recovering from a long time of calling yourself ugly things. You have to call yourself different, new positive things. That way, those will stay within your subconscious. You are 25 and it’s ok that you haven’t landed a job or an income you like. You are working to get it, you are finally starting to embark towards it. Good thing you are starting on time. You enjoy working, you just don’t allow yourself to do it because your focus is in the wrong place. Change your focus and you will realise how highly productive you really are. So what if people laugh at your face? Who cares about them? You have, for the longest time. The moment you stop caring about what people think, your life will be better and you will listen to the first one that matters: your lovely self. You can get yourself to exercise, it’s only a matter of wrapping your head around it and DOING it. You have gone a while without doing it steadily and your body is missing it because it needs it, because it is so good for it. Show love to your body by moving it, instead of going through random people’s pictures with the body you aspire to have. Listen to your intuition, listen to your gut. It always knows what is right and what isn’t. You know what to do, you know which voice to listen to. Love will always prevail. You are love. This was only a stumble. You almost fell but you didn’t allow yourself to fall as hard as you could have. Now get back up and show yourself some love. Day in, day out. You are amazing, nothing less.