I once went to have my Astral Letter read. What is that? You may wonder. It’s a diagram used by astrologists to provide a psychological interpretation and predict stuff about the person who asks for a reading. I don’t know if “Astral Letter” is the proper name for it in English, i just translated it from how it is known in Spanish.
Anyhow, amongst other things, my letter said that my mission in life is setting boundaries, accepting myself and having pretty hair haha.
I hadn’t been on the best mood because one of my partners started bullying me all day long. He likes to joke a lot at expense of others and he’s usually funny but ever since we work every single day together, I’ve become quite fed up with his little jokes. He makes fun of how distracted I am, how slow, how desperate for a boyfriend I am, how lazy, how much I don’t like to think, etc. He’s always been like that, but right now it has intensified. The thing is, that this isn’t the first time it has happened to me. I generally let people make fun of me and put me down just because it can be funny and entertaining. Pleasing people has gone overboard and I hate confronting others because I’m afraid they may not like how I talk to them. So there, I said it: I’m scared to be strong when all of my life I’ve been weak and have allowed others to step over me. I’ve always given impressive power to other people’s opinion, so if they say I’m distracted, lazy, slow, ugly or fat, I’ll believe it and act accordingly.
This is not a pity post, it is an eye-opening one. And, whenever I don’t honor my word, whenever I don’t treat my body like a temple, whenever I sleep late, whenever I waste my own time and listen (and believe) other people’s agressions towards me, I am not loving myself, I am giving up the power to love my own perfect self.
I’ll go to sleep now.
I leave you with a very beautiful, powerful and inspirational speech.
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